grit, grind, grow

Heyy y'all! What's going on?! I hope y'all have been taking care of your mental health and putting yourself first as we previously discussed. I know it's hard, and I still struggle as well, but we have to do it because no one else can, or quite frankly, will. Since moving to Arizona and experiencing major changes and shifts in the dynamics of my life, I've had to work extremely hard to maintain my newly found coping mechanisms amid these fast-paced changes. The major obstacles that I've had consistently tackle are imposter syndrome and accepting the responsibility that comes with new levels in life. Let's talk more about it below.

Imposter Syndrome

Have you heard of Imposter Syndrome? It's defined as doubting your abilities and feeling like a fraud when you have every right and skill to be doing whatever it is that you're doing. I suffer from this so badly! I know what I'm capable of and what I can do, but I still let those negative doubting thoughts sneak in and I ruminate on them. However, I'm actively working to change this and overcome imposter syndrome because it doesn't benefit me at all! I have permission to be a confident and certain woman because I have God on my side. No matter what room I enter or position within a company I take, it is mine because God made it so, I am capable, valuable, and competent. He wouldn't allow me to enter any space if it wasn't ordained for me beforehand. Imposter syndrome is something that I've dealt with ever since I can remember. With prayer, confidence, and practice, I've been able to mitigate the heaviness of this feeling. When you're sure of what you're doing and who you are, those negative thoughts don't last forever because the light rolls back around and you remember who and WHOSE you are!

With new levels, comes new responsibilities.

As I'm healing from childhood and teenage trauma, progressing in my professional career, and realizing which reactions and ideologies are built on trauma responses and which aren't, I've realized that I have to continuously have a paradigm shift as I go to each new level in my life whether that new level is in a professional setting, in my relationship or in my parenting. However, you can't try to unlearn what's harmful to you without addressing the root of it, which is why I set aside time to reflect and practice gratitude over my life. It's like wanting to get a new car, but not preparing in the way of fixing your credit or saving for a down payment. You have to prepare in certain seasons to fully embrace the new levels and responsibilities that you have acquired. Transitioning from a fixed mindset to a growth mindset is excruciatingly painful because I have to unlearn a ton of harmful habits in almost every aspect of my life. Not a moment goes by when I'm like, "girl, you know you can't do that or get that..." then I remember that I can - through Christ who strengthens me (and of course some diligence, grit, and stepping outside of my comfort zone.) But you know me, ima get it done. Period.

I've said all of this to say that I AM enough. In my eyes, I've done enough growing, healing, and accomplished enough goals to stop right now and rave about how I'm this change maker and generation curse breaker, but I refuse. If I've made it to this point, I know that there's more ahead. More healing, more learning, and more mindset shifts as I reach each new level of life! I can't stop until I am deceased, to be honest.

The route was already mapped for me - I'm just walking it out. Living it out. Experiencing it through and through.

Y'all learn every lesson. Don't go backward - keep pushing forward, and you'll continue to see results if you sit down and look for them. As always, thanks for interacting with me, and leave a comment to let me know how you deal with imposter syndrome.💗